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Tuesday, October 14, 2014

Hope Is Not Lost

Every day is such a mystery.  Just when we think everything is going almost perfectly, a wrench gets thrown in the mix and totally messes everything up.  I don't always understand the reasons for these changes.  Recently, they've been very trying on my faith.  Not my faith in God, but my faith in myself.

Things that at one point I felt so sure were answered prayers from God, suddenly seem like dead ends.  Was I wrong for ever believing they were answered prayer? Evidence shows that I wasn't wrong.  Why, then, are these same blessings quickly turning into black holes for me? With every wave crashing it is getting harder to stay afloat.

Monday, October 13, 2014

Remembering The GOOD in Goodbye

"Waiting for the end to come, wishing I had strength to stand
This is not what I had planned, it's out of my control.
Flying at the speed of light, thoughts were spinning in my head
So many things were left unsaid, it's hard to let you go...

Sitting an empty room, trying to forget the past
This was never meant to last, I wish it wasn't so...

The hardest part of ending is starting again."

Waiting For The End - Linkin Park

"Do you feel cold and lost in desperation?
You build up hope but failure's all you've known?
Remember all the sadness and frustration, and let it go...

Iridescent - Linkin Park

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

My Frugal Wedding!

I'm not a huge "anniversary buff."  I've never been that woman who kept track of dates, like when I first met my stud (I know it was some time in early July 2009--or was it in late July?), let alone the first time that he kissed me.  However, this morning I just happened to be thinking back on our beautiful wedding day, and that's when it hit me: in only 6 more days it will be our six-month wedding anniversary! No, we won't exchange gifts or anything like that.  We'll be lucky if we even get a to enjoy a nice meal together.  But it's fun to realize how quickly time has already flown by, and now we're only 3 months away from bringing Baby "C" into this world (yep.... you did the math, didn't you?).

Ever since our big day came and went, I've had quite a few people ask me how I planned our wedding for less than $3000.  We paid for almost everything, ourselves.  Part of my parents' wedding gift to us was that they paid for our venue, but we still chose to keep the location affordable.  So, in honor of our anniversary I'm going to share with everyone my own, personal tips for how to have a lovely wedding on a very tight budget. 

Everything about my wedding was pretty much DIY.   It was a lot of work, but it was also fun and helped us cut costs tremendously.  Most importantly, it made our wedding a heck of a lot more special!

Friday, September 5, 2014


This started out as a personal status, and it just kept growing.... so I gave myself no other choice but to use my blog as the avenue for this vent. 

Sorry, but yes, I am going to probably offend some people.... it is not my intention to offend people, but it is agitating me to see people on Facebook, posting (on Facebook) about how horrible Facebook is for forcing us to download an app which will "track everything about us." I'm sorry, but this is the silliest thing I've heard.

It's so easy to see how fake these accusations are. People are dying around the world, and we're busy debating if Facebook is trying to take over our lives... yet, we are sharing this "FACT" with each other by way of Facebook instead of deleting our Facebook accounts...?! Okay, that makes sense... I guess... or not.

That's actually pretty hypocritical. If Facebook is sooooo evil, why use it at all--even on your computer?? I have news for everyone: Facebook would be able to gather a lot more personal information off your computer than they would your phone.  They also would not blatantly TELL you that they plan to partner with the government and invade your privacy, if that was actually their intention. If you don't want somebody knowing something about you, you probably shouldn't put it (anywhere) on fb... period. It's called social media---------the news travels. Just saying.

Do your homework, people! It's a silly rumor that got started. The permissions Facebook is listing are the same permissions most of your other phone apps have always requested off of you, in order to be able to access your contacts, camera and microphone, so that they can perform all of their features properly. That's all. No, seriously. I really mean it. THAT'S ALL!!!

Obviously, if you're worried about the Facebook app, chances are you didn't check out all of your other phone apps permissions prior to downloading them. Why somebody decided to pick on Facebook messenger, specifically, I'll never understand, but it's getting ridiculous. Almost every app has the same permissions listed, especially if they're socially related in any way.

So here's your homework for the day: Start with reading the articles below, then do your own 5-minute google search. Finally,  please go focus on something more REAL, like the power that the ISIS group is gaining across the world.

NOTE: it is your prerogative to not download the FB messenger app, if you don't feel comfortable doing so. Nobody is putting a gun to your head. However, it's okay if your friends (who did their research) do feel perfectly comfortable keeping their app downloaded, a year after they initially installed it. I promise you, they aren't going to explode and they aren't going to compromise any of your personal information through their phone.

Okay... this pregnant momma rant is over. {{This is the result of not getting much sleep and not feeling well. I'll probably apologize for my crankiness again,}}

Happy Friday, everyone!!

Monday, August 25, 2014


I was coming on here, to my computer, to write about *boring* school stuff (By the way, I was using my 8-year-old son's voice for that part), but of course the force of Facebook was calling my name before I could focus on doing any writing (NO ... I'm not addicted ... ahem!).  As I was perusing through my home page, I came across a note from one of my dearly beloved childhood friends (Which, can I just say that I didn't even know "notes" were still an APP on Facebook??--awesome!--And, yes, I am aware that my technological skills reflect that of a person living in the dinosaur era).  

Ashlee's note really hit home for me and it was quite profound.  Sometimes, we get so caught up in the statistics and politics of the news in this world, that we forget how it would apply to our own individual, personal lives.. or in other words, we often judge or sympathize instead of trying to empathize.  With her permission, I would like to share Ashlee's message and pray that it sinks in for all parents, tonight, wherever you are, even if you aren't a professed Christian.

"Tonight, I was going through the boys normal bedtime routine with them: giving them their baths, brushing their teeth, getting their PJ's on, tucking them into bed, reading them a Bible story and then saying our prayers.  It was in the middle of reading them their Bible story when my mind turned to the children being tortured and killed for their faith in Iraq.  

Saturday, May 31, 2014

Thank You, God, For My Husband...

"Teach Us To Count The Days
Teach us to make the days count
Lead us in better ways
That some how our souls forgot
Life means so much
Life means so much
Life means so much
...Every day is a gift
You've been given
Make the most of the time
Every minute you're livin'."

-Chris Rice

Slowing down long enough to appreciate the beautiful things that keep me busy!