Thank You

October 09, 2012

Thank You

Have you ever held your baby tightly in your arms, scared to death that you might not get to hold her much longer? I have. It is the worst feeling in the world. Instantaneously, prayers go up to God. When the doctor explains how serious the situation is, you turn to your spouse for comfort only to find that they have the same worried look on their face.

That was Stud and I Sunday evening, after spending 6 hours in the ER with Roisin and finally discovering she had meningitis and was being admitted to the ICU. Little did I know earlier that morning, even while she was running a fever, just how serious things were going to get.

Before we could get her settled into her room in the ICU I had only spoken with my mom, my cousin and my best friend briefly about what was going on. By the time we had her settled into her room, unbeknownst to Stud and myself, people across the world had already begun prayer chains for her. WOW. I am still amazed and deeply touched, and I want to say once again on behalf of both Stud and I, thank you so much for everyone's thoughts, prayers, and encouraging words.

That's all I can really write right now. I can't even focus enough to pour my heart out like I normally would. Just thank you, everyone, for the prayers.

Big brother, protecting his little sister

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When I was a girl I had a strong passion for music. I loved to play the guitar and piano, and oh boy could I sing! I had written and recorded a few of my own Christian songs on the guitar and I honestly had a BRIGHT future in the worship field. That was all until I met a boy who I chose to allow to take me down the wrong path and away from the faith I was raised in. By the time I graduated high school, I was living a party life with him. Instead of going to college with my friends, we were getting married and I soon became pregnant.

Before I knew it, I was a young, single mom trying to grow up on my own. I was trying to restore my faith in God when I met the man I call my husband today. We have been together for 10 years now, raising my 13 year old together and we have two additional beautiful children. We own and operate a business together, and I homeschool all 3 of our children.

Recently, I was diagnosed with a cavernoma mass on my brain and epilepsy. In many ways my life has been turned upside down and yet, I can see that God has used this major challenge in my life as an opportunity to send me on two missions:

1) To share my story. I know he didn’t bring me to this to go through it silently. He wants me to share my experience to bring hope to others, so here I am!

2) To rediscover the girl I once was. The girl I lost so many years ago. I convinced myself that it was too late, but it has taken almost 20 years, 3 children and a brain tumor for God to call me back to who I once was. We often think we are too jaded to be able to return to our innocent selves, but that is where God’s mercy comes in.

I would love it if you took this journey with me.

"If I told you my story

You would hear Hope that wouldn't let go

And if I told you my story

You would hear Love that never gave up

And if I told you my story

You would hear Life, but it wasn't mine

If I should speak then let it be

Of the grace that is greater than all my sin

Of when justice was served and where mercy wins

Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in

Oh to tell you my story is to tell of Him”