Work Vs. Passion
It is no surprise that I love to write. Writing goes beyond “love” for me,
though. I can’t live without it.
That may sound silly to some, but it’s the truth. My emotions, my gifts, my job all requires
for me to write. If I couldn't write, I
would no longer be able to provide for my family. If I couldn't write, I would also be far less
in tune with my own emotions. It is the
only way that I am good at expressing
myself. Verbally, I stink at it.
I was looking through my folder of old writings. This folder is sacred to me. It holds the key to every aspect of my life;
from poems and prayers, to songs, essays and articles that I have written. Some, I will never share with anyone. Others, I am currently in the process of trying
to have published by magazines!
As I was looking through my folder I came across one of the
first essays I had to write for my English Composition course in college. It was titled Rhetorical Analysis on The Onion Newsletter’s video “Home Depot Honors
Fallen Soldiers With Great Prices On Tools,” which is pretty self
explanatory by the title, itself, what the essay is about (and yet, at the same
time it is a pretty confusing title). I
won’t bore you with the whole essay just to get to the point of what my
professor wrote to me, along with giving me an A+ for my grade:
“April, my goodness.
This is the smartest, most well-researched piece of writing I've encountered
in an introductory composition course for quite a while. Your critical faculties are exemplary. I look forward to enjoying more of your work!”
That professor, Liz, (she did not like being called “Ma’am,”
“Miss,” or “Professor,” and she made that very clear!) made a huge impact on my
life. However, I didn't realize it, nor
did I appreciate it, at the time. I had
just gone through my divorce and at the moment, I thought I was going to college
to be a Respiratory Therapist. English
Comp was just a pre-requisite. Little did I know that she would open my eyes to
pursuing what my real dream was; writing.
She took time outside of school to meet with me at places like
Chick-Fil-A so that I could let my (at the time) 2-year-old son run around on
the playground, while she spent hours advising me in the best ways to have my
writing published. She truly believed in
me and my talent; more so than I believed in myself.
At that point in my life I didn’t hold much merit to what she was
telling me. It isn't that I wasn't
intrigued by her encouragement, but at that point in my life my focus was on
one thing and one thing only: desperately trying to support myself and my child
off of one income. I had no faith that writing would provide enough of a stable
income for me and Ninja, and even if it did it would take years of struggling before
it got us to that point. I was too
scared to let go and have faith. My faith could have and should
have been stronger. I was just a very young single-mom, who taught herself quickly not to have faith in anyone but
herself. Ironically, I didn't really have any faith in myself, either. I had to discover myself, first, before I could figure out where my faith truly stood. That didn't happen until a few years later.
It’s funny, what a few years of “wisdom” can do for your
life. If I knew then what I know now, I
would have changed my major instantly and I would not have wasted one more day
on a field of study that was (though VERY admirable) not my cup of tea and
never really was. However, God knew my heart
and His timing is perfect.
Here I sit today, a personal contractor and more
specifically, an Editor, doing something I love; something a lot of other people
would love to do, and making money doing it! It's not a ton of money, but more than
I ever made managing an office. I love
my job, and I also love the time it allows me to have with my children. Yet, it is still a job.
This type of writing; this blog entry, and the ability to write
about whatever pops into my head, will always be my passion. I don’t do
it for money or for fame. I do it simply because I love it. However, as I said, I have decided to pursue
having some of my articles published.
Whether I succeed at it or not, I have no idea, but I won’t know until I try! Likewise,
I am currently putting any extra time I have (which roughly adds up to 4
minutes and 35 seconds per week) into writing my first book. It’s a work in progress but maybe someday it
will become something!
The point is to love what you’re doing, and enjoy every
second of it. The moment you force it to
become a “job” is the moment it becomes work
and no longer passion. Don’t stop pursuing what you love most, even
if you aren't seeing a lot of money growing from it. The longer you
stick with it the more it WILL pay
off.
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